Time Well Spent

They don't see eachother much during the week.

So Daniel will usually get Brighton out of bed when he gets home from work and read him a goodnight story.

he is always sleepy... but that's okay.

Happy

Well, since I was being debbie downer (as my sister would call me) I decided to put up a couple video clips of Brighton to make me feel happy...

I can make it...right?

Well since Monday I have spent maybe 5 hours with Daniel this week.

( I don't count sleeping as time spent)

He is flying to UTAH to do recruiting for PWC out of SF after work tonight.

What!! How can this be??

This is what I look forward to every week...

The weekend!

He will be home Sunday night.

I can make it... right?

Don't get me wrong I LOVE being with Brighton.

It would just be nice to...

have an adult conversation

to make dinner for 2

saying here can you hold him for a sec

(instead of putting him on the floor while I go to the bathroom and he cries)

the list could go on

Just saying... it would be nice

I know people are in worse situations than I am in

But...

again, it would be nice

I can make it... right?

Moved by....

this blog http://www.natalienortonphoto.com/ Monica showed me and I have been following. She recently lost her 8 week old son. She is strong and such an amazing writer and always makes me ponder and feel better about life. Like this that she wrote.

For those who know

Sometimes this sickening feeling comes. . .

and I want to hide.

but you can't hide from real.

well, never for long enough. . .

The feeling is blank.

thick.

deep.

empty.

How can a heart be

both numb and raw in the same breath?

again,

I want to hide.

To curl up into a ball, close my eyes,

and wake up in a "different real."

anything.but.this.

and the kids are screaming.

all.the.time.

fighting the same battle as me,

but without the bearings that only arise

from age and unwanted experience.

I ache for us all.

Then a day will come and go.

and I'll think,

"We're adjusting well to this new world, this new normal."

Until a day comes and goes where we aren't.

adjusting well.

no, not at all.

. . .

I am never ashamed of how I feel.

the good.

the bad.

the terrifying.

it is all a part of the path.

This path, that though unmarked,

has been well traveled.

I hear the whisperings of those who know

all around me.

Guiding me on.

Reminding me that I do not walk this path alone.

We walk together.

And he who descended below all

is our guide.

In Him I place my hand,

and my heart.

"in him will I trust:
he is my shield,
and the horn of my salvation,
my high tower,
and my refuge,
my savior."

2 Samuel 22:3

Valentines Day~Part 2

Yep I got some of these...

And yes I made this...

Then Daniel and I played

Settlers of Catan, haha we are boring.

You would think we have been married for longer than 2 years.

Valentines Day~Part 1

I love Valentines Day.

Spending the day with the two boys I love most

Lovin this 65 degree weather in February!

I can do it....

Not for very long

But I can sit up for at least 10-20 seconds

And

I rolled over today! :)

I was laying in bed with mom and dad.

I was determined to do it and I did it!

I went from my back to my tummy,

then went back to my back.

Mom and Dad are so proud of me.

Brighton's Little Dude

For those of you who do not know what Brighton's little dude is, it's right in front of you... Those little curls on the side of his head.

You must be asking your self why is it called a little dude? One Day I was talking with my niece Ellie, conversation went like this.

Ellie: Oh look Stephanie Brighton has a little dude on his head.

Me: What's a little Dude?

Ellie: His curl on the side of his head.

Me: Why do you call it that?

Ellie: Because he looks like a little dude.

Okay :)

Haha she has such an imagination.

But wait it gets better.....

(Oh and he has a lipstick kiss on his cheek)

It's only on one side of his head. Flat as a board on one side, curly on the other side.

Hopefully it doesn't stay like this forever.

The master mind Ellie

Early Morning Drive

Wow who would have thought these beautiful green hills would be right in my own back yard?

Daniel and I decided to wake up early and get on the road and take pictures of these beautiful green hills. These pictures don't even justify how GREEN these hills were. It was raining that morning so I loved how the fog looked against the green hills, so pretty.

Brighton loved it, he is definitely a go baby like his Daddy. :)

Okay so Daniel hates this picture but I love how candid it was, trying to get a family picture and Daniel hits the button a little to fast. Haha look how cute Brighton's little face looks. I love it.

Love is in the AIR...

I love the month of February, I love all the red, I love loving my husband a little more, I love all the LOVE this month brings!